Double J is truly a sweet heart isn't he? He always come across my mind as the most dedicated and grateful person. I couldn't put this in words, but I love him so much for this. :'))


Just thought that it's time I dig out the deepest of my heart, I think it's safe to.... at least.

Despite how everyone felt differently towards this issue, I knew deep inside it wasn't this way, not anymore.

It was not a few days ago I realised you are not just another friend of mine. Would it be too much if I say that you are more like a soul-mate? Because a soul-mate pushes your buttons and pisses you off a regular basis, and they are the only one (other than your parents, of course) who makes you face your shit.

While you are chasing after my shadow, while I appeared nonchalant and annoyed, while this and while that, I'm getting so used to them. Have you wondered how I had slowly relied on your bullshits which made me frustrated and crazy?

I hate how I read in between the lines even though I didn't want to, I hate the salts of ambiguity, I hate the world in between black and white...

Like how I expected of you, you walked to the another end and found another new-found happiness. I was too difficult, and I think you wanted someone easier. I was too worried about you, and I didn't have the spirit to face the aftermath of the decision.

Not that I had regretted of course. If not for that, then there will never be this. There's no heartbreak, things ended clean. I wouldn't die because you aren't by my side, even though there would definitely be times when I missed those moments and how my heart had memorised how I felt then, but I wouldn't feel sad because I did.

Because love is all about finding someone you can't live without........ and you are certainly not the one.
Because I just thought you are someone whom I thought it will be nice to be with.

Everything back then belonged to the past, not the present, and I'm certain they are not going to be part of the future as well.

Stay healthy. Stay happy. Get a girl who is worth with what you can give.


p/p/s: I'm amazed how much I had changed as a person during this 2 years. I wondered what will happened if I actually worked hard for my "O" levels and ended up in another place? What would be in store for me in the road not taken? I'm all zen with the issues now. Just, boy, if you can't accept me when I'm in my worst and get pissed off, then lol, you don't the hell deserve my best either.

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Double J is truly a sweet heart isn't he? He always come across my mind as the most dedicated and grateful person. I couldn't put this in words, but I love him so much for this. :'))


Just thought that it's time I dig out the deepest of my heart, I think it's safe to.... at least.

Despite how everyone felt differently towards this issue, I knew deep inside it wasn't this way, not anymore.

It was not a few days ago I realised you are not just another friend of mine. Would it be too much if I say that you are more like a soul-mate? Because a soul-mate pushes your buttons and pisses you off a regular basis, and they are the only one (other than your parents, of course) who makes you face your shit.

While you are chasing after my shadow, while I appeared nonchalant and annoyed, while this and while that, I'm getting so used to them. Have you wondered how I had slowly relied on your bullshits which made me frustrated and crazy?

I hate how I read in between the lines even though I didn't want to, I hate the salts of ambiguity, I hate the world in between black and white...

Like how I expected of you, you walked to the another end and found another new-found happiness. I was too difficult, and I think you wanted someone easier. I was too worried about you, and I didn't have the spirit to face the aftermath of the decision.

Not that I had regretted of course. If not for that, then there will never be this. There's no heartbreak, things ended clean. I wouldn't die because you aren't by my side, even though there would definitely be times when I missed those moments and how my heart had memorised how I felt then, but I wouldn't feel sad because I did.

Because love is all about finding someone you can't live without........ and you are certainly not the one.
Because I just thought you are someone whom I thought it will be nice to be with.

Everything back then belonged to the past, not the present, and I'm certain they are not going to be part of the future as well.

Stay healthy. Stay happy. Get a girl who is worth with what you can give.


p/p/s: I'm amazed how much I had changed as a person during this 2 years. I wondered what will happened if I actually worked hard for my "O" levels and ended up in another place? What would be in store for me in the road not taken? I'm all zen with the issues now. Just, boy, if you can't accept me when I'm in my worst and get pissed off, then lol, you don't the hell deserve my best either.

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