This picture. Because it was so awesomely taken, and I miss my OTP. ;_;

This post is specially for the anonymous who commented on this entry.
Before that, I wanted to say Cassiopeia / Bigeast / International fans are jjang for having #tvxq trend twice on their anniversary.



I'm so proud seriously, lol. We ended the 26th with a BANG, and welcomed the 27th as the 7th year for TVXQ. Rise high my boys!

~~
(Anyhow, Linhiee, thank you so much for speaking up to me and being there. I was feeling so horrible that I just hope someone just appear and say anything to me. The first person that came across my mind is you. With those comments you left, it gave me so much courage. ♥♥♥♥♥)

I apologise, Anonymous for replying your long, ridiculous comment this late. Apparently, I had been quite busy, and I'm surprised that you, as a lawyer and possibly Jaejoong's acquaintance is so free that you're able to leave 3 comments on my blog. Wow, amazed much.


First of all, I don't know how did you got that information that I'm 17/18, but I'm 26 years old. Ex-girlfriend of Jaejoong's. I stayed at Korea until I was 24 years old and moved to Singapore (where I am right now) studying at the very noble National University of Singapore.

Just kidding.

I don't understand why you said I couldn't love someone whom I hadn't seen before, especially Jaejoong. I know that he smokes, he drinks, he had inked his body countless of times, he watches porn and he freaking says the "fuck" word. However, I love him all the same. It doesn't bothers an millimeter of a strand of my hair. 

May I know, what else in this freaking world is enough for me to dislike or even hate him after fully understanding him? 

Truthfully speaking, I'm ASHAMED of you. Being his friend, (like you had stated), you seem to understand very little of him. In Dong Bang Shin Ki, he could be the member who is MOST DEDICATED to fans, the one who wanted to show the most to the fans who is the real him, he had that stated five million times before. And he will not hesitate to ransack his bags to show his fans, his personal belongings, and will not feel embarrassed to let the fans see the weird pictures he had taken of himself and the other members.

Secondly, I had been in this fandom for almost 2 years. Have you by any chance read through everything when I was loving this wonderful man?

If you have not, please DO NOT make such falsely, ridiculous accusations on me. I DON'T LOVE HIM MERELY FOR HIS LOOKS. LIKE HELL, I DON'T EVEN LOVE HIM FOR HIS LOOKS.

I CAN SWEAR RIGHT HERE, WITH MY LIFE, MY MUM'S, MY DAD'S, MY BROTHER'S THAT EVEN IF ONE DAY HE TURNED BACK INTO LIKE THIS:



I CAN. I WILL. LOVE HIM ALL THE SAME WITHOUT ANY CHANGES.

Yes, I can admit that when I went gaga over him, it was more or less, his looks. But I don't right now. As cliche as it may sound, I fall in love for him in the middle out of nowhere, and without me knowing it, I love him, NO, not for his looks and not for his body, hell no.

Then what? You may ask. As difficult as it is to answer this question, I will try my best to do it for you.

Because of his passion for music. Because he sings from his heart and not just by the mouth. Because he cares deeply for everyone around him. Because he comes by the most dedicated member of Dong Bang Shin Ki. Because he is always endlessly taking care of his members - preparing medicines, cooking, tidying their hair and attires. Because no matter how people used him, he still trust them back and would treasure the friendship. Because he places his best for everything he is assigned for. Because he worked hard for his dreams and make sure he will realized them in the end. Because he bows his head low, always grateful to those who supported AND to those who didn't. Because he blushes the pinkest whenever he's praised, never feeling arrogant only thinking that he have to work harder, so as to not disappoint.

(The above mentioned is what I see, SO THEY ARE THE 5%? Seriously.)

And for those reasons I don't even understood why - because he makes me feel proud with the slightest achievements, because his voice became my only melody, because his singing are the only comfort I seek and needed, because his presence calmed the storm inside me and because he is living, it makes me want to live on, fight for my own dreams too...

I can definitely go on. However, NONE of the reasons are his looks. If I love him for his looks, my favourite songs wouldn't be Love in the Ice and Tonight just because I can hear his high notes in these songs, my top 200 tracks will not be TVXQ, and I won't be listening to their ballads most of the time just because I love listening to purely their vocals without the heavy background music. If I love him for this looks, I will have a mountain of people to fangirl after, like Jaebum, Hongki, Rain, SHU-I, Big Bang etc. You don't see me writing about others do you? Oh yes, I forgot, you only read one pathetic entry.

You said he is not an ideal man, but just a simple man.

HOW THE FUCKING HELL YOU KNOW HE IS NOT MY IDEAL MAN?

I want a husband that can cook, I want a husband whom can take good care of our future children. I want someone who is compassionate, forgiving enough so that he could lecture me when I'm being a bitch.

If he's not your ideal man, doesn't mean he can't be mine okay? What turf.

Yes, I do talk about his looks. Human appreciate the finer things in life. I love him so much I love every part of him. Still, I appreciate his works, I even wrote about it. I wrote about how I'm proud of him for composing 9095, I wrote about how amazing he was because he made me cry when I listened to Don't Cry My Lover. I complimented how awesome his acting was for a first-timer in Heaven's Postman. And the huge long list go on.

 I don't fucking care if you are a lawyer or not. It doesn't mean that you met mean people everyday, I must be one of them. And don't tell me how you work at the age of 16 and how hard you life must be. In fact, I work for my mum at the tender age of 15 years old, and I had TWO jobs at the age of 16, AND I AM STILL WORKING NOW. I'm not the usual 17 years old you met, I don't get my money from my parents ever since I started working, and whenever I get my pay I would treat my whole family for a dinner which cost almost a hundred dollars, I would buy my family gifts while juggling with the mountains for TVXQ albums/singles I got to buy. I can say, my thinking, is far more matured than the most 17 years old out there.

One sentence, if you had not read at least my entries dated half a year ago, don't even accuse me of loving him for his looks.

I sounded rude. But right here in Singapore, we don't really care about respecting elders and bow to them when we met. We're ONE people, ONE nation. Well, I do respect elders, but hell, you might be some 13 year old, how will I know?

By the way, thankfully to the awesome globalisation and technology, Nuffnang had tracked NO VISITORS FROM KOREA AND/OR JAPAN.

Now I'm freaking out, Jaejoong's friend? But which country are you from?

Regarding the offer of revealing your identity in TV specially for me? I WOULD LOVE IT. But I don't know why, a lawyer and TV doesn't quite match does it? Not to mention Jaechunsu's lawyer is close to 40 years old of age....

Still, I'm taking this precious offer you are giving me.

1) Tell me which television program you would be appearing on. No worries, I can watch LIVE, I got KeyHoleTV and many other programs which enable me to watch LIVE even though I'm in Singapore.

2) My name is nings. I don't care how you do it, I would loooove to hear my name. It further gives me the confirmation isn't it?


Really, from what I had read from your comments, I don't think you understand Jaejoong that much. Don't you feel guilty? Posing as his friend, bashing on other fans, making false accusations. I don't know how many people you had done this to, but, stop this right now, you're the one, that will truly be hurting Jaejoong in the end.

If you're really a lawyer and Jaejoong's friend, which I highly doubt so, don't you feel that you should be contributing in the case and talking to Jaejoong about it instead of being so free, stalks people's blog and scold the innocence?


Now this is for Jaejoong lol.

I agree that I might not know and understand you completely, and I had pretty guessed I need more than a lifetime to know you fully (had repeated this for the 3rd time, yes, I've remembered), not that I minded really. It was always a surprise when I knew another you, like how a child tasted chocolate inside his hard mint candy. I wouldn't want to risk the possibility of hurting you, even if that Anonymous said were completely bullshit, but you're so precious to me, you didn't know. Pretty guess I have to stop writing about your double chin or how your head was big. However, I wished I could let you know, fans wrote this because they were happy, happy to see you growing another chin which means you are eating well and finding your head even a beauty, because we love your everything, which includes your flaws.

On a happier note, class chalet in 10 more hours! So fucking excited! /throws confetti/

Uhm... sorry to those who got serious goosebumps disease after reading lol. >D

5 Comments:

 My Linh said...

Think of it this way, Nings. I am a Cassie... like tiny stars for you and of course for DBSK. During day time, when things are good, you look up the sky and you won't see any star at all, the glaring sun is too bright and too proud of itself - like fame, good fortune... but hey, these good things dont last forever, they wont be there for you all the time

but the stars, they are always there... just whether u could see them or not. They always shine for u

like Cassies to DBSK
like us to DBSK
like me to you.

SO... If anything happens, and u need me, you know I will be there, with my tiny power to shine. I won't do this for just anyone, but I believe u really deserve more credit than mere fangirl title. No biggie.

Take care, ok?


p/s: I think Cassiopeia is the BEST name for any fan club... seriously.

2:37 PM  

 Anonymous said...

Just a passerby who is a fan of TVXQ.
I feel great or more than happy to have a fellow fan like you!
You have my respect!
Don't get too upset yeah? Keep going.
PS: I wish Jaejoong would read this post.

9:19 PM  

 Lawrence said...

Dear Nings,
I won´t say much just that I´m proud. Proud of you, proud of Linhieee, proud of Cassiopeia, proud of DBSK, proud of Jaejoong.
Thank you. Thank you very much~ <3

3:06 AM  

 lellihir said...

I've just reread the entry you wrote and the comments that this Anonymus left for it.
Why do people think we DBSK fans are love the boys for their look? I admit first it was their faces I loved but then I fell in love with Yoochun's voice (he is my fav). His deep and husky voice singing She and then the way he sings in Love in the Ice and Kiss Shita Mama Sayonara. My eyes still wander on his face, on his lips but my heart is for his voice and singing/songwriting skills. For me he is a wonder who wrote Colors and Shelter and found the best partner to sing with these songs.
I am not a Cassie, I am European so there is not a chance, but I am a DBSK fan and loath all those who think we love them for their looks and think we made them gods. Yes, in a way we made them gods but not for their faces and abs but their songs and voices.
Obsession for me is when you push a handy or a camera into their faces, when you grab them on airports, when you harrassing them on purpose and so on. This Anonymus is just not right.
Your blog made me keep my faith when it started slipping away. Your words about how you love Jaejoong's persona, his voice, his smile and I never thought your love for him is childis or wrong. I know you know that he is not a "god" in real life just a human from flesh and blood but you love him as an artist, as a singer with a voice which makes me thank the Powers Above for it was given to him and I am able to hear it (sorry if my words are hard to understand, I am not too good in English). A man (beside Yoochun) who can make me laugh, cry and take the next step on the road of my life. But this is true for the whole DBSK.
And why he wrote Jejung which is the Japanese form of Jaejoong's name if he is his friend? Is he not a Korean friend of Jaejoong? And I understand that he wants to be anonym because of his status but he can freely use a nickname, isn't he?
But I say I like your blog, your dedication to Jaejoong and to DBSK.

3:13 AM  

 Anonymous said...

I'm another passerby and a fan of Dbsk too. Singaporean too.:D

Found your blog through Google months ago. I don't know you but like the previous commenter before me, I would like to thank you for helping me keep my faith in Dbsk when it started wavering...It's pretty tough when even my friend who's a Dbsk fan doesn't really seem to share my agony over their current state of affairs.

Also I love the way in which you express Jae in such glowing terms and I love looking at the really beautiful pics of him and other members. Sometimes I get a little hurt when my friend concentrates on her fave member and inadvertently criticizes Jae, so it's pretty cathartic reading your blog...it makes me feel better, seeing how much Jae is loved by other people.

So Jiayou!

4:42 PM  

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This picture. Because it was so awesomely taken, and I miss my OTP. ;_;

This post is specially for the anonymous who commented on this entry.
Before that, I wanted to say Cassiopeia / Bigeast / International fans are jjang for having #tvxq trend twice on their anniversary.



I'm so proud seriously, lol. We ended the 26th with a BANG, and welcomed the 27th as the 7th year for TVXQ. Rise high my boys!

~~
(Anyhow, Linhiee, thank you so much for speaking up to me and being there. I was feeling so horrible that I just hope someone just appear and say anything to me. The first person that came across my mind is you. With those comments you left, it gave me so much courage. ♥♥♥♥♥)

I apologise, Anonymous for replying your long, ridiculous comment this late. Apparently, I had been quite busy, and I'm surprised that you, as a lawyer and possibly Jaejoong's acquaintance is so free that you're able to leave 3 comments on my blog. Wow, amazed much.


First of all, I don't know how did you got that information that I'm 17/18, but I'm 26 years old. Ex-girlfriend of Jaejoong's. I stayed at Korea until I was 24 years old and moved to Singapore (where I am right now) studying at the very noble National University of Singapore.

Just kidding.

I don't understand why you said I couldn't love someone whom I hadn't seen before, especially Jaejoong. I know that he smokes, he drinks, he had inked his body countless of times, he watches porn and he freaking says the "fuck" word. However, I love him all the same. It doesn't bothers an millimeter of a strand of my hair. 

May I know, what else in this freaking world is enough for me to dislike or even hate him after fully understanding him? 

Truthfully speaking, I'm ASHAMED of you. Being his friend, (like you had stated), you seem to understand very little of him. In Dong Bang Shin Ki, he could be the member who is MOST DEDICATED to fans, the one who wanted to show the most to the fans who is the real him, he had that stated five million times before. And he will not hesitate to ransack his bags to show his fans, his personal belongings, and will not feel embarrassed to let the fans see the weird pictures he had taken of himself and the other members.

Secondly, I had been in this fandom for almost 2 years. Have you by any chance read through everything when I was loving this wonderful man?

If you have not, please DO NOT make such falsely, ridiculous accusations on me. I DON'T LOVE HIM MERELY FOR HIS LOOKS. LIKE HELL, I DON'T EVEN LOVE HIM FOR HIS LOOKS.

I CAN SWEAR RIGHT HERE, WITH MY LIFE, MY MUM'S, MY DAD'S, MY BROTHER'S THAT EVEN IF ONE DAY HE TURNED BACK INTO LIKE THIS:



I CAN. I WILL. LOVE HIM ALL THE SAME WITHOUT ANY CHANGES.

Yes, I can admit that when I went gaga over him, it was more or less, his looks. But I don't right now. As cliche as it may sound, I fall in love for him in the middle out of nowhere, and without me knowing it, I love him, NO, not for his looks and not for his body, hell no.

Then what? You may ask. As difficult as it is to answer this question, I will try my best to do it for you.

Because of his passion for music. Because he sings from his heart and not just by the mouth. Because he cares deeply for everyone around him. Because he comes by the most dedicated member of Dong Bang Shin Ki. Because he is always endlessly taking care of his members - preparing medicines, cooking, tidying their hair and attires. Because no matter how people used him, he still trust them back and would treasure the friendship. Because he places his best for everything he is assigned for. Because he worked hard for his dreams and make sure he will realized them in the end. Because he bows his head low, always grateful to those who supported AND to those who didn't. Because he blushes the pinkest whenever he's praised, never feeling arrogant only thinking that he have to work harder, so as to not disappoint.

(The above mentioned is what I see, SO THEY ARE THE 5%? Seriously.)

And for those reasons I don't even understood why - because he makes me feel proud with the slightest achievements, because his voice became my only melody, because his singing are the only comfort I seek and needed, because his presence calmed the storm inside me and because he is living, it makes me want to live on, fight for my own dreams too...

I can definitely go on. However, NONE of the reasons are his looks. If I love him for his looks, my favourite songs wouldn't be Love in the Ice and Tonight just because I can hear his high notes in these songs, my top 200 tracks will not be TVXQ, and I won't be listening to their ballads most of the time just because I love listening to purely their vocals without the heavy background music. If I love him for this looks, I will have a mountain of people to fangirl after, like Jaebum, Hongki, Rain, SHU-I, Big Bang etc. You don't see me writing about others do you? Oh yes, I forgot, you only read one pathetic entry.

You said he is not an ideal man, but just a simple man.

HOW THE FUCKING HELL YOU KNOW HE IS NOT MY IDEAL MAN?

I want a husband that can cook, I want a husband whom can take good care of our future children. I want someone who is compassionate, forgiving enough so that he could lecture me when I'm being a bitch.

If he's not your ideal man, doesn't mean he can't be mine okay? What turf.

Yes, I do talk about his looks. Human appreciate the finer things in life. I love him so much I love every part of him. Still, I appreciate his works, I even wrote about it. I wrote about how I'm proud of him for composing 9095, I wrote about how amazing he was because he made me cry when I listened to Don't Cry My Lover. I complimented how awesome his acting was for a first-timer in Heaven's Postman. And the huge long list go on.

 I don't fucking care if you are a lawyer or not. It doesn't mean that you met mean people everyday, I must be one of them. And don't tell me how you work at the age of 16 and how hard you life must be. In fact, I work for my mum at the tender age of 15 years old, and I had TWO jobs at the age of 16, AND I AM STILL WORKING NOW. I'm not the usual 17 years old you met, I don't get my money from my parents ever since I started working, and whenever I get my pay I would treat my whole family for a dinner which cost almost a hundred dollars, I would buy my family gifts while juggling with the mountains for TVXQ albums/singles I got to buy. I can say, my thinking, is far more matured than the most 17 years old out there.

One sentence, if you had not read at least my entries dated half a year ago, don't even accuse me of loving him for his looks.

I sounded rude. But right here in Singapore, we don't really care about respecting elders and bow to them when we met. We're ONE people, ONE nation. Well, I do respect elders, but hell, you might be some 13 year old, how will I know?

By the way, thankfully to the awesome globalisation and technology, Nuffnang had tracked NO VISITORS FROM KOREA AND/OR JAPAN.

Now I'm freaking out, Jaejoong's friend? But which country are you from?

Regarding the offer of revealing your identity in TV specially for me? I WOULD LOVE IT. But I don't know why, a lawyer and TV doesn't quite match does it? Not to mention Jaechunsu's lawyer is close to 40 years old of age....

Still, I'm taking this precious offer you are giving me.

1) Tell me which television program you would be appearing on. No worries, I can watch LIVE, I got KeyHoleTV and many other programs which enable me to watch LIVE even though I'm in Singapore.

2) My name is nings. I don't care how you do it, I would loooove to hear my name. It further gives me the confirmation isn't it?


Really, from what I had read from your comments, I don't think you understand Jaejoong that much. Don't you feel guilty? Posing as his friend, bashing on other fans, making false accusations. I don't know how many people you had done this to, but, stop this right now, you're the one, that will truly be hurting Jaejoong in the end.

If you're really a lawyer and Jaejoong's friend, which I highly doubt so, don't you feel that you should be contributing in the case and talking to Jaejoong about it instead of being so free, stalks people's blog and scold the innocence?


Now this is for Jaejoong lol.

I agree that I might not know and understand you completely, and I had pretty guessed I need more than a lifetime to know you fully (had repeated this for the 3rd time, yes, I've remembered), not that I minded really. It was always a surprise when I knew another you, like how a child tasted chocolate inside his hard mint candy. I wouldn't want to risk the possibility of hurting you, even if that Anonymous said were completely bullshit, but you're so precious to me, you didn't know. Pretty guess I have to stop writing about your double chin or how your head was big. However, I wished I could let you know, fans wrote this because they were happy, happy to see you growing another chin which means you are eating well and finding your head even a beauty, because we love your everything, which includes your flaws.

On a happier note, class chalet in 10 more hours! So fucking excited! /throws confetti/

Uhm... sorry to those who got serious goosebumps disease after reading lol. >D

5 Comments:

 My Linh said...

Think of it this way, Nings. I am a Cassie... like tiny stars for you and of course for DBSK. During day time, when things are good, you look up the sky and you won't see any star at all, the glaring sun is too bright and too proud of itself - like fame, good fortune... but hey, these good things dont last forever, they wont be there for you all the time

but the stars, they are always there... just whether u could see them or not. They always shine for u

like Cassies to DBSK
like us to DBSK
like me to you.

SO... If anything happens, and u need me, you know I will be there, with my tiny power to shine. I won't do this for just anyone, but I believe u really deserve more credit than mere fangirl title. No biggie.

Take care, ok?


p/s: I think Cassiopeia is the BEST name for any fan club... seriously.

2:37 PM  

 Anonymous said...

Just a passerby who is a fan of TVXQ.
I feel great or more than happy to have a fellow fan like you!
You have my respect!
Don't get too upset yeah? Keep going.
PS: I wish Jaejoong would read this post.

9:19 PM  

 Lawrence said...

Dear Nings,
I won´t say much just that I´m proud. Proud of you, proud of Linhieee, proud of Cassiopeia, proud of DBSK, proud of Jaejoong.
Thank you. Thank you very much~ <3

3:06 AM  

 lellihir said...

I've just reread the entry you wrote and the comments that this Anonymus left for it.
Why do people think we DBSK fans are love the boys for their look? I admit first it was their faces I loved but then I fell in love with Yoochun's voice (he is my fav). His deep and husky voice singing She and then the way he sings in Love in the Ice and Kiss Shita Mama Sayonara. My eyes still wander on his face, on his lips but my heart is for his voice and singing/songwriting skills. For me he is a wonder who wrote Colors and Shelter and found the best partner to sing with these songs.
I am not a Cassie, I am European so there is not a chance, but I am a DBSK fan and loath all those who think we love them for their looks and think we made them gods. Yes, in a way we made them gods but not for their faces and abs but their songs and voices.
Obsession for me is when you push a handy or a camera into their faces, when you grab them on airports, when you harrassing them on purpose and so on. This Anonymus is just not right.
Your blog made me keep my faith when it started slipping away. Your words about how you love Jaejoong's persona, his voice, his smile and I never thought your love for him is childis or wrong. I know you know that he is not a "god" in real life just a human from flesh and blood but you love him as an artist, as a singer with a voice which makes me thank the Powers Above for it was given to him and I am able to hear it (sorry if my words are hard to understand, I am not too good in English). A man (beside Yoochun) who can make me laugh, cry and take the next step on the road of my life. But this is true for the whole DBSK.
And why he wrote Jejung which is the Japanese form of Jaejoong's name if he is his friend? Is he not a Korean friend of Jaejoong? And I understand that he wants to be anonym because of his status but he can freely use a nickname, isn't he?
But I say I like your blog, your dedication to Jaejoong and to DBSK.

3:13 AM  

 Anonymous said...

I'm another passerby and a fan of Dbsk too. Singaporean too.:D

Found your blog through Google months ago. I don't know you but like the previous commenter before me, I would like to thank you for helping me keep my faith in Dbsk when it started wavering...It's pretty tough when even my friend who's a Dbsk fan doesn't really seem to share my agony over their current state of affairs.

Also I love the way in which you express Jae in such glowing terms and I love looking at the really beautiful pics of him and other members. Sometimes I get a little hurt when my friend concentrates on her fave member and inadvertently criticizes Jae, so it's pretty cathartic reading your blog...it makes me feel better, seeing how much Jae is loved by other people.

So Jiayou!

4:42 PM  

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